FINDING MY OWN BOOST & GLOW
From Numbing Out To Finally Meeting Myself
For as long as I can remember, I’ve never truly felt like myself.
Even back in my school days, I struggled. I never really liked who I was. I carried this deep, heavy sense of not being enough, not fitting in, and not feeling comfortable in my own skin. That feeling didn’t magically disappear as I got older – it followed me into my teens, adulthood, relationships, and motherhood. It coloured everything.
On the outside, I learned how to play a role.
On the inside, I was falling apart.
I became a mum, my life got busier, and my focus went to everyone else. I have two amazing children – my eldest is now 22 and lives abroad, and my youngest is 19 and still lives with me. They are my absolute world. But somewhere in between caring for them, holding everything together, and trying to be “okay” for everyone else, I lost sight of me completely.
The Mask I Wore
I suffered with depression and anxiety, but I didn’t have the tools or language for it. I didn’t know how to sit with my feelings, how to express them, or how to heal them. So I did what so many of us do: I numbed.
I used food, alcohol, busyness, people-pleasing – anything that would distract me from the ache inside. If there was a way to avoid being alone with my thoughts, I’d take it. Nights out, mindless scrolling, overeating, drinking to take the edge off… it all became part of my “normal”.
From the outside, it could look like I was just living life.
But deep down, I knew I was running away from myself.
I wasn’t happy.
I wasn’t present.
I was surviving, not living.
I had beautiful kids, people who loved me, and a busy, non-stop life. To others, it probably looked like I was “doing well” or “holding it all together.” But inside, I felt numb, heavy, and completely disconnected from my own body and my own soul.
The Quiet Cracks That Started To Show
Over time, the cracks started getting harder to ignore.
My energy was constantly low.
- My moods were all over the place.
- My body felt heavy, sluggish, and disconnected from me.
- I’d wake up ashamed of the night before – what I ate, what I drank, how I spoke to myself in my own head.
I’d make promises to myself:
"On Monday I’ll start again."
"This weekend I’ll be ‘good’.”
“Next month will be different.”
But nothing truly changed, because I wasn’t getting to the root. I was trying to fix my life on the surface – with willpower, restriction, and more self-judgment – while still avoiding the deeper work of actually meeting myself, feeling my feelings, and learning how to care for my body and mind with compassion.
And in the middle of all of this, I was still being “Mum” – showing up for my 19-year-old at home, staying connected with my 22-year-old abroad, trying to be strong, trying not to let them see how lost I felt. I wanted to be present and energetic for them… but I could feel how far away from myself I really was.
Hitting My Own Version Of “Enough”
There wasn’t one massive rock-bottom moment.
It was more like a slow build-up of small, painful realisations:
- Realising I didn’t recognise the woman in the mirror.
- Realising I was using food and alcohol to cope instead of to nourish or enjoy.
- Realising I felt disconnected from my own life, like I was watching it rather than living it.
- Realising that, even with grown-up kids, I still didn’t know who "I" was outside of being a mum, a daughter, a partner, a friend.
One day, that quiet whisper inside – the one I’d been ignoring for years – became too loud to push away:
"This can’t be it. You’re meant for more than this constant battle.”
That was my “enough”.
Not a dramatic movie moment.
Just a very real, very honest conversation with myself.
I didn’t suddenly become a different person overnight.
But I did make one small, powerful decision:
To stop abandoning myself, and start learning how to come home to me.
The Choices I Started Making For Me
Part of this journey has been being radically honest about what I need and what genuinely supports me – body, mind, and soul.
That’s included looking at my relationship with food and alcohol, healing my patterns of numbing, and also exploring supportive tools with proper research and care.
I also recently started weight‑loss injections with retatrutide, initially using a micro‑dosing approach. Before starting, I spent a significant amount of time researching it, not only for its potential to support weight loss but also for its wider reported benefits. In particular, I was interested in emerging information suggesting it may help with symptoms related to ADHD.
I was diagnosed with ADHD as a child, but as an adult I’ve been unable to access medication so far due to long waiting times on the NHS, which has left me looking for other ways to support my functioning and overall wellbeing. Choosing to try these injections wasn’t about “fixing” myself or chasing a smaller body at all costs – it was about finding additional support on my healing journey, alongside the inner work, the mindset shifts, the nervous system regulation, and the lifestyle changes I’ve been making.
I share this because I believe in being transparent: my glow is not the result of one magic thing, but of many small choices, a lot of learning, and a commitment to keep meeting myself where I am.
Why RE.SET BOOST AND GLOW Exists
This is exactly why the RE.SET BOOST AND GLOW wellness website exists.
Everything you see here has been part of my own journey back to myself — to my inner glow:
- The programmes and guidance that helped me reset my mindset
- The support and wisdom from our amazing coaches, who held space for me when I didn’t know how to hold it for myself
- The products and tools that supported my body, helped my energy, and made it easier to show up for myself day after day
None of this is theory for me.
It’s personal. It’s lived. It’s the path I walked to go from:
- Numb → to present
- Disconnected → to in tune with my body
- Lost → to finally starting to know who I really am
RE.SET BOOST AND GLOW is not just a wellness website.
It’s the place I wish I had when I felt completely lost.
A space where you feel seen, supported, and reminded that you are not broken — you’re just in a season of reset.
And as a mum of two grown-up children, it’s also about showing them – wherever they are in the world – that it’s never too late to choose yourself, to heal, and to rewrite your story.
From Numbing Out To Boosting & Glowing
A huge part of this shift has also been working with Matt, our resident PT and nutritionist. He didn’t just hand me a plan – he helped me understand my body, my hormones, my energy and my patterns around food and movement. With his support, I moved away from punishment and “all or nothing” thinking, and towards strength, nourishment and realistic habits that actually fit my life. Having someone in my corner who truly "got it" made such a difference.
Little by little, I began to shift:
1. I started listening to my body
Instead of punishing it or ignoring it, I got curious:
- What foods actually made me feel nourished, not just comforted in the moment?
- How did alcohol really leave me feeling the next day – emotionally and physically?
- What happened to my mood, sleep, and hormones when I numbed vs. when I cared?
2. I reached out for support
I stopped trying to “fix” myself in secret.
I allowed others to guide me – coaches, mentors, and people who had walked a similar path and could hold non-judgmental space for me. That support changed everything.
3. I started creating simple rituals instead of impossible rules
No more all-or-nothing, no more starting over every Monday.
Just small, consistent practices:
- Drinking more water
- Adding in nourishing foods instead of obsessing over restriction
- Mindset tools that helped me catch my inner critic and choose kinder thoughts
- Moments of stillness, reflection, and reset
Slowly, my relationship with myself began to change.
The numbing became less appealing.
The old patterns started to soften.
I wasn’t chasing “perfect” anymore.
I was choosing presence – for me, and for my kids.
What “Glow” Means To Me Now
Today, when I talk about “glow”, I don’t just mean skin, looks, or a certain body shape.
Glow, for me, is:
- Waking up with more clarity and calm, not dread and self-loathing
- Feeling in my body rather than at war with it
- Making choices around food, alcohol, rest, movement and medical support from a place of self-respect, not punishment
- Allowing myself to shine in my own way, instead of hiding, shrinking, or pretending
- Being able to enjoy time with my 19-year-old at home, and connect with my 22-year-old abroad, from a more grounded and present version of me
My glow is not about being “fixed”.
It’s about being connected.
I’ve added a photo of myself from 2022 as a reminder of how far I’ve come. When I look at her, I see the version of me who was still deeply hurting, still carrying so much she didn’t know how to put down. And now, in February 2026, I’m becoming a version of myself that I truly love. Not a perfect version, not a fixed version – but a real one. A me that feels genuine, softer, stronger, and finally worth showing up for.
You’re Not Broken. You’re In A Reset.
If any part of my story sounds like yours – the numbing, the constant restart, the quiet shame, the feeling of being lost in your own life – I want you to know this:
You are not weak.
You are not a failure.
You are not broken.
You’re just in a season of reset.
A season where your old ways of coping are no longer working, and your deeper self is asking for something more honest, more loving, more aligned.
That’s what RE.SET BOOST AND GLOW is here for.
- To give you programmes, support, and tools that are grounded in real life, not perfectionism.
- To remind you that your glow is not something you earn by being “good enough” – it’s something you uncover by choosing yourself, again and again.
- To walk alongside you as you move from numbing out… to truly living.
Finding My Inner Glow
Today, I don’t claim to be “perfect” or “finished.”
But I am:
- Kinder to my body
- Gentler with my mind
- More honest with my emotions
- Closer to the real me than I have ever been
My inner glow isn’t about perfection or a certain size or a flawless routine.
It’s about feeling:
- More alive
- More grounded
- More you
Everything on this site — every coach, every product, every offering — is here because it has, in some way, been part of my own healing and reconnection.
If you’re reading this and you feel even a little like I once did — numb, lost, disconnected, unsure who you really are — I want you to know this:
You are not alone.
You are so worthy of your own RE.SET, your own boost, and your own glow.
And if you’re a parent too, you’re allowed to find you again, even while you love your kids with your whole heart.
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